oh please...you don't even know

Dspeck - Raging Tide

Hi!
My cleric DSpecK on RT, many of you might know. I have played pwi for about 5 years. I have been in 4 factions total.

I know some of you have a lot of fun on wc. I enjoy the many personalities in pwi. I have met people from all over the world, of different cultures etc. and it is very enlightening.

I have had the experience of being the subject of people's discussions, trolls, rants and obsessive fans/stalkers has become numerous over time. It is quite amusing at times, but can be very draining. I think the odd part is many of you have no clue who I am, but I am just a human, nobody special...just me. b:bye


Although I REALLY like the rumors I hear and the insane assumptions people come up about me. I wanted to give you some more appropriate means to get your kicks when bashing my character. I figure if you know this you couldn't possibly try to flame or troll me with anything everyone doesn't know already. b:surrender

I know some may think it inappropriate for me to share this, but if you are going to fight you might as well fight fair right? Well here you go! I hope you have fun with this.

I am single mom. I was homeless at 16 to avoid domestic violence at home. I worked 20hrs week to support myself and went to school full time. I ended up dropping out of school at 17 to work full-time.

I married my longtime bf of 5yrs at 18 and divorced shortly after. He was abusive, physically/verbally/emotionally.

At 19 I had my first child. I got my GED at 20. Started my cleaning business at 24 after years of working full time for employers who were less than kosher.

I worked as Sole-proprietor at my cleaning business for almost 7 years. I got pregnant with my second child and kept working untill 2 weeks before my due date.

I developed issues with my shoulder, tendinitis and carpal tunnel in my wrists. So I ended up closing my business and looked into expanding my education.

I was determined to be the first person in my family to graduate with a degree. I spent 4 semesters on Dean's and President's list with a GPA of 3.5 or higher and was admitted to phi-kappa theta honor society.

My heath declined during my third pregnancy, and I was removed from classes for medical issues. They said I could not return to college unless my Dr agreed my issues would not interfere with my education.

I was later diagnosed with:

Moderate Carpal Tunnel in both hands- with moderate nerve damage

Shoulder tendinitis and bursitis-severe loss of dexterity and hand function

Degenrative Disk Disease- my L1 and L4 disks in my spine are so compacted they are almost gone

Uni-lateral Polycyctic Kidney Disease- both kidneys are covered with cycts one is non-functioning since birth

Ovarian Cycts and menstrual disorders due to hormone imbalance

Fibromyalgia- with chronic fatigue syndrome

Scoliosis- 10 degree curve in my spine that cause pain and possibly the deterioration of my disks.

I went through so many tests, blood work, and specialists to figure out how to treat these issues.

I have been a stay at home mom for almost 5 years, not by choice.

Stress of lifestyle changes and lack of income caused me to recently notice my mood changes and I fell into a depression that has lasted over two years causing anxiety and insomnia.

If that isn't enough, maybe you will find it funny that I never met my father or that I spent my childhood being abused.

I am not married irl or game(anymore) although I have been with the father of my kids for 15 years and yes he is the father of all three of my kids. No, I did not gold dig anyone for my gear either. b:chuckle

I know I have bumped heads with some, but I do not malliciously attack anyone who has not verbally attacked or pked me personally. (the pking is expected but within reason >.>)

I will defend anyone I see who deserves it, even if I do not like them or agree with their actions. I also will do the opposite for those doing wrong.

So hate me, pk me, troll me, harass me, w/e. But F.Y.I. If you put your character on follow to me don't go afk red named. The city guards will kill you if you get too close. b:laugh

I am not nice. I try to be honest as possible and accepting of everyone's differences, but in the end I am still human and flawed.

b:kiss

DSpecK

Colum - Raging Tide

Makes me wonder how much wc drama and bs someone has to go through that they want to write their lifestory...

Not meaning to be disrespectful, just throwing out the fact that our server community has sunk deep.

HideYoHubby - Archosaur

Such a fascinating story, you really shouldnt let ppl get to you though. Still I am curious why people bring up if their dad bailed on them. It stings as a kid for sure, I should know, but as you grow up you simply see the man was nothing but a waste of space you happen to share DNA with.

furryballz

attention **** much? Idk why you are sharing this but it seems you like when people talk about you wherever in WC or faction chats. Making a whole thread about yourself its pretty pointless and makes you look like a fail keyboard warrior. -snip-

eirghan

waaaat

DarkSkiesx - Dreamweaver

Don't waste your time giving a flying **** what people think/say about you. People that dislike you will desperately find a reason to, and people that like you will always see the good in what you do. I've lost count of how many people hate me on my server for reasons as trivial as killing them in NW or blaming me personally for the downfall of their entire faction. I don't let that affect me in the slightest as I only care about the perception of the people that I care about who I call friends. Hate is a powerful exhausting emotion and I take it as a compliment someone would dedicate that much energy on me.

This thread will be interpreted as a bid for attention and sympathy by those that dislike you. Those that like you and consider you their friend will either already know about all of this or will feel offended that you chose to share it publicly with the entire community instead of confiding in them privately as is expected from close friends. People that don't know you won't give a flying **** either way.

It's a lose lose situation.

ObviousAlt - Raging Tide

DarkSkiesx - Dreamweaver wrote: »

Don't waste your time giving a flying **** what people think/say about you.

^this

especially since its just a game

ZetsumieX - Raging Tide

furryballz wrote: »

attention **** much? Idk why you are sharing this but it seems you like when people talk about you wherever in WC or faction chats. Making a whole thread about yourself its pretty pointless and makes you look like a fail keyboard warrior/Troll just like your "friend" Tzoner.

+1 to this

Also i find it pretty funny when u rage then come make a thread like this to make anyone feel compasion for ur irl.

ijs it's a ***** game, here doesn't matter if u are orphan, rich person, ill or w/e irl, we are all avatars in a pixel world.

go seek attention somewhere else b:bye

Dspeck - Raging Tide

ZetsumieX - Raging Tide wrote: »

+1 to this

Also i find it pretty funny when u rage then come make a thread like this to make anyone feel compasion for ur irl.

ijs it's a ***** game, here doesn't matter if u are orphan, rich person, ill or w/e irl, we are all avatars in a pixel world.

go seek attention somewhere else b:bye

LMFAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! b:laugh

Compassion? NO TY

Attention? NO TY

My one and only reply to this:

I would actually preferr you, Zet and all of these other rude selfish people to leave me the hell alone, but we all know you have nothing better to do than bash people on a game to make your small ego seem big. It is flattering you spend so much time thinking about me, stalking me and being rude to me even though you claim it is not important to you. Thank you for being my fan! b:cute

I figure if you all were so adamant about wanting to know so much about me and making fun of me, then why not give you some stuff to have fun with. Maybe somehow it can make your sad pathetic life seem better to make fun of someone who is struggling. My issues are not terrible, but none the less stressful to deal with. I am still human just the same as you.

Honestly, I don't give a **** what you think about me, if I did then why would I reveal my flaws?

In the end if you have to justify treating humans badly on a game by stating it shouldn't matter then you are the one with problems because it is sick to think that any of you feel it nessecary to attempt to hurt anyone to the point they would even need to fight back.

IDK, maybe some of you are not human.

All I know is if you saw anyone treating your friends they way some of you treat others you would damn well not appreciate it.

I don't have anything to prove, or anything to hide. You have nothing to use against me anymore so go on, grow up and I pray the next person you attack is much stronger than I and can handle the abuse because I know my flaws and I also know that I am a good person too. I am sorry I can not say the same for some of you.

zoner112012

TLDR not that anyone needs to. You are playing an mmo...an mmo where most people don't really care about your life outside of game. An mmo where whatever problems your real life brought you doesn't matter..because all that really matters is how crappy you are to people. So your sob story on here isn't going to win you any kind of points. Some people may sympathize...tbh they shouldn't. Am I saying your life didn't have it's issues or suck in some way or another? No. Am I saying no one really cares...yes. The fact is that you continuously talk down to people and have proven with the way you talk to people you dislike in WC that you are a jerk. I don't know why or care what brought on the need to advertise your life story on forums..but if you really think it will help you it won't. I can assure you that your life, while maybe not the greatest, will always pale in comparison to someone elses.

INB4 this gets shut down as it will summon troll bait, I realize I am not the perfect example of how to treat people...but you do take the cake for some of the **** you have said...to me and others included. At least I try to keep things humorous, nothing you have said here can be any excuse for the **** you have said to people. Grow up..and if you are tired of dying in pk since you really aren't that good at it maybe you should try to STOP being in pk mode....i mean a T3 Psy one shots you in NW for goodness sakes.

-snip-

All in all this is just a thread that will incite flaming and trolling...I will read all the comments from here on out for lols...knowing that a mod SHOULD be closing it down. Even if they don't...it is still quite entertaining.

asan0

Dspeck - Raging Tide wrote: »

I am not nice.

^ That there, about the only thing I believe in that post.

Eoria - Harshlands

Dspeck - Raging Tide wrote: »

I would actually preferr you, Zet and all of these other rude selfish people to leave me the hell alone, but we all know you have nothing better to do than bash people on a game to make your small ego seem big. It is flattering you spend so much time thinking about me, stalking me and being rude to me even though you claim it is not important to you. Thank you for being my fan! b:cute

You could have just sent in a ticket with relevant screenshots saying "hey, this dude is legit stalking me. Can you do something about it?" rather than making a thread, you know.

ZentDreigon - Raging Tide

Making this thread was a mistake. Now people who are/were unaware might be curious and want to hear the story. But they most likely will hear the gossip version of it which will not be helpful to you. Those gossips might even make it worse.

I understand this thead is a form of release, but it can also be a fuel. My suggestion is turn your back on this, and walk away. If your blacklist has space, use it.

zoner112012

ZentDreigon - Raging Tide wrote: »

Making this thread was a mistake. Now people who are/were unaware might be curious and want to hear the story. But they most likely will hear the gossip version of it which will not be helpful to you. Those gossips might even make it worse.

I understand this thead is a form of release, but it can also be a fuel. My suggestion is turn your back on this, and walk away. If your blacklist has space, use it.

She doesn't know how to walk away. She is quite delusional as well...she very clearly showed so with this post....

Dspeck - Raging Tide wrote: »

I have had the experience of being the subject of people's discussions, trolls, rants and obsessive fans/stalkers has become numerous over time. It is quite amusing at times, but can be very draining. I think the odd part is many of you have no clue who I am, but I am just a human, nobody special...just me. b:bye

She swears she has fans/stalkers. She called me out on this the other day when, AS USUAL, she felt compelled to run her mouth to me. I mentioned how amusing it was she is leader of Zoo again, and she swore I was stalking her...like LOL you have a cat shop set up in the very middle of west arch all the damn time....ANYONE CAN SEE WHAT FACTION YOU ARE IN. b:chuckle

bubbler1

this amuses me more than i can say, since when i see Dspeck involved in wc drama... it is ALWAYS Dspeck that started it. With the possible exception of MrsMav i can honestly say i have not sen anyone else in RT server treat others so disrespectfully on such a consistant basis. and in the case of M. M. it was only directed at 2 or 3 fellow pkers, while Dspeck is rude to Everybody. Claiming to try to respect others and whining on a forum that everybody should feel sorry for you and just sit back and take the **** you dish out to them for absolutely no reason is pathetic coming from you. Maybe before expecting the community to feel sorry for you and the way you claim to be treated so poorly you should have taken a moment to look at the way you treat others.

Jenisky - Raging Tide

ZentDreigon has the best advice here imo.

I think this thread is ridiculous on a MMO forum but I also think it serves as a reminder that the keyboard warriors behind the screen ARE actually real people, and everyone has their own struggles that we know nothing about. It's a nice lesson in humility that I feel RT could use.

DSpeck, I don't know you or anything about whatever drama is going on but good on you for pulling your life together and turning things around for yourself. But this thread just fuels the fire and wasn't a good idea. And since you appear to have experienced a bunch of **** yourself and know what it's like, perhaps you should consider being less pugnacious in the e-world.

TruthWarren - Raging Tide

furryballz wrote: »

attention **** much?

ZetsumieX - Raging Tide wrote: »

i find it pretty funny when u rage then come make a thread like this to make anyone feel compasion for ur irl.

zoner112012 wrote: »

TLDR not that anyone needs to.

zoner112012 wrote: »

She doesn't know how to walk away. She is quite delusional as well...she very clearly showed so with this post....

bubbler1 wrote: »

this amuses me more than i can say

The replies to your post prove your point. Did you really expect anything different? Raging Tide is the lowest common denominator and its players really show that. It was the same way 5 years ago. I doubt that will ever change until the server closes down and its denizens infest and pollute the other ones. Their insecurities are apparent, as is their desperation to project it onto others and lash out at them in an attempt to compensate. Their denial is great. They will dig themselves a whole big enough to bury PWE's offices before they admit their life, their situation, isn't as good or better than yours. Instead of improving themselves, they'll make an *** of themselves in front of everyone else in an attempt to tear you down. I know firsthand. I used to be their target. It's a shame you've inherited that position, but it's not worth indulging their stupidity. They're nobodies. Don't waste your time or energy trying to make them change. Just do you and enjoy what you do. That's what a game is supposed to be about.

Viktorian - Archosaur

this entire thread makes me glad i quit the game and after a period of time went to another server.

zoner112012

TruthWarren - Raging Tide wrote: »

The replies to your post prove your point. Did you really expect anything different? Raging Tide is the lowest common denominator and its players really show that. It was the same way 5 years ago. I doubt that will ever change until the server closes down and its denizens infest and pollute the other ones. Their insecurities are apparent, as is their desperation to project it onto others and lash out at them in an attempt to compensate. Their denial is great. They will dig themselves a whole big enough to bury PWE's offices before they admit their life, their situation, isn't as good or better than yours. Instead of improving themselves, they'll make an *** of themselves in front of everyone else in an attempt to tear you down. I know firsthand. I used to be their target. It's a shame you've inherited that position, but it's not worth indulging their stupidity. They're nobodies. Don't waste your time or energy trying to make them change. Just do you and enjoy what you do. That's what a game is supposed to be about.

Taking small parts of what people say and trying to use them out of context against other people, lol sorry to say but that is sloppy coming from you. Saying that our denial is great...lol because yes her life was so much worse then other peoples and you know this for a fact. Face it TruthWarren you quit the game cuz NO ONE liked you...because ALL you did was talk down to people. You in my opinion are worse then DSpecK here ever was. You would get on just to bash and talk down to people that weren't what you considered up to par with you. At least DSpecK has SOME issues with the people she argues with...you are just an ***. You were peoples targets because you targeted EVERYONE. She didn't inherit anything she didn't deserve...she asked for every bit of hate she gets with the way she talks to and of people when they don't agree with her. For the longest time and still from time to time I can't even WC without her having SOMETHING dumb to say about what I said...sounds a LOT like you TruthWarren LOL. You posting here is like calling the kettle black.

What makes this even more amusing is you also think or used to claim how great MedAlert was the same cleric that has since quit because she turned her back on everyone and lost her bf...and stole his account in the process LOL.

TruthWarren - Raging Tide

zoner112012 wrote: »

Taking small parts of what people say and trying to use them out of context against other people, lol sorry to say but that is sloppy coming from you. Saying that our denial is great...lol because yes her life was so much worse then other peoples and you know this for a fact. Face it TruthWarren you quit the game cuz NO ONE liked you...because ALL you did was talk down to people. You in my opinion are worse then DSpecK here ever was. You would get on just to bash and talk down to people that weren't what you considered up to par with you. At least DSpecK has SOME issues with the people she argues with...you are just an ***. You were peoples targets because you targeted EVERYONE. She didn't inherit anything she didn't deserve...she asked for every bit of hate she gets with the way she talks to and of people when they don't agree with her. For the longest time and still from time to time I can't even WC without her having SOMETHING dumb to say about what I said...sounds a LOT like you TruthWarren LOL. You posting here is like calling the kettle black.

What makes this even more amusing is you also think or used to claim how great MedAlert was the same cleric that has since quit because she turned her back on everyone and lost her bf...and stole his account in the process LOL.

It's not out of context, though. It's the message of the post in just a few short words. I think you might want to go back and brush up on your understanding of the term "out of context". Yes, your denial is great. Yes, I would venture to say that her life is considerably worse than that of anyone else I know that plays this game. No offense to her. No, I did not quit because nobody liked me. I had nobodies that disliked me, sure, but they were nobody to cause me to quit this game. I quit because I got bored with it. It's just not a good game. The only entertainment I really got from it was knocking people off their high horse, calling them on their BS, what have you, and watching their toddlerific reactions. Even that got boring to me. I only targeted people that had it coming to them. People *still* do not understand that, or they refuse to accept it. Yes, your denial is great, and you would deny even that. The only thing dumb about anything I've ever said to any one of you is your reaction to it. Well... that and backing you up for the brief time I did. Shaky alliances. Everyone makes mistakes, right?

Edit: I'm not sure how this is at all relevant to MedAlert, or what you hope to accomplish by conjuring up baseless rumors and mentioning them here. It contributes nothing to whatever moot point you're attempting to make.

Ibunneh - Raging Tide

DSpeck, I never got into it with you, but I feel very bad for you. I can show empathy, but in reality that would be false because I honestly dont give a damn. This was pointless and flame bait. I'm laughing at the responses more though

zoner112012

TruthWarren - Raging Tide wrote: »

It's not out of context, though. It's the message of the post in just a few short words. I think you might want to go back and brush up on your understanding of the term "out of context". Yes, your denial is great. Yes, I would venture to say that her life is considerably worse than that of anyone else I know that plays this game. No offense to her. No, I did not quit because nobody liked me. I had nobodies that disliked me, sure, but they were nobody to cause me to quit this game. I quit because I got bored with it. It's just not a good game. The only entertainment I really got from it was knocking people off their high horse, calling them on their BS, what have you, and watching their toddlerific reactions. Even that got boring to me. I only targeted people that had it coming to them. People *still* do not understand that, or they refuse to accept it. Yes, your denial is great, and you would deny even that. The only thing dumb about anything I've ever said to any one of you is your reaction to it. Well... that and backing you up for the brief time I did. Shaky alliances. Everyone makes mistakes, right?

Edit: I'm not sure how this is at all relevant to MedAlert, or what you hope to accomplish by conjuring up baseless rumors and mentioning them here. It contributes nothing to whatever moot point you're attempting to make.

How is anyone in denial? I even specifically stated that sure her life was bad, also...you don't know EVERYONES real life story so to sit there and claim you know her life is worse than anyone elses is stupid. Everyone that has read this and spoken to me has laughed at you posting her and said that it is immensely dumb for you to have anything to say about a subject that everyone knows you are a huge *** at too. You never knocked anyone off any high horse..you are delusional. You claim that nobody hated you but anytime your name is mentioned on WC people laugh and ridicule you. One person even told me not to respond to you because talking to you is like talking to a wall...they were right expect that I am more likely to get a better response from a wall then you. You are nothing but a troll and a jerk to everyone that doesn't kiss *** to you. Have fun continuing to try and defend a person on forums that in all reality doesn't deserve anyone elses defense nor does she need yours. Considering you did quit you have no clue was to anything that is going on on the server and so thus any statement you have here defending people you don't know really has zero merit to pretty much everyone so have fun blowing hot air out your fingers typing.

-nope-

ovenusarmanio

That's quite enough of this.