Dear Bushido...

WillowGirl - Dreamweaver
WillowGirl - Dreamweaver Posts: 180 Arc User
edited February 2010 in Tideswell (East)
Since my access to the faction forums was swiftly removed when I left the faction, (totally understandable, though it hurts not logging on that forum every morning while I have my coffee and my cigarette), I have some things I wanted to say to the whole faction. I have heard some things since I left that are really bothering me and I'd like to set everyone straight.

First off, my leaving was in no way premeditated. Just ask the guy who was logged on the herb bank before TW - if I was planning on leaving, why, oh why, would I have donated all of my herbs???

Secondly, my husband has absolutely nothing at all to do with my leaving Bushido. I am my own person with my own heart and soul and I make my own decisions. He was just as shocked as I was when I stood up from his desk with my mouth hanging open and said, "I just left the faction."

For those of you who have had your questions about why I left evaded or ignored, I'll tell you a few of the reasons why I did it. There are more reasons than I can count for why it was the right decision for me and for Bushido, so I'll only list some of them. We all know a certain leader who took a long break from PWI and who, upon returning, refused to resume his leadership of the faction, which was fine by me, it was his choice. However, I felt there was a lot of personality change that had occurred in his absence and I feel that he came back viewing us as a bunch of morons who can't do a thing without him there to yell at us and call us names. During TW on Friday, this person called the cleric in our squad a name on vent that I can't repeat here, a cleric who was new to the faction and who was obviously doing the best he could. He called an officer in the faction a "nimrod" and was almost continually yelling at all of us, calling us "f-ing idiots." Well, excuse me, sir, but Bushido got where it was, won that damn city and held on to it for a good time, WITHOUT YOU. We did just fine while you were gone, we had come a very long way, and you showed up and started trying to make us feel stupid and it was the last thing Bushido needed.

On to another reason... When this person was yelling and carrying on on vent, all I could think was, "If this was ANYONE ELSE in the faction, the current leader would kick them off vent and boot them." But because this person pays for vent and the forums, because he's the former leader, there was this attitude of, "Well, it's his faction, it's his vent, they are his forums...." I call shenanigans. Vent isn't a necessity, forums can be rebuilt on a free site, and... well, it's not his faction anymore, is it? He CHOSE to take a break, to pass lead, we didn't take it from him. And the sad fact is I feel like I was made his squad leader for this TW as a manipulation. I feel like everyone knew exactly what would happen when I was made his leader and everyone knew he wasn't going to listen to me. I was told my plan was stupid, I was yelled at on vent, and when I opened that faction window it was to boot him, in all honesty.

But... as the window opened and I began looking for his name on the list, I realized what would happen if it came down between him and I. He was the founder of the faction and, like it or not, I was just a guest there. I made what I felt was the best choice for myself and for the faction that I still love with all my heart and I left. It was a decision made in a heartbeat, but no, it wasn't a rage-quit. I will not be returning to Bushido any time in the foreseeable future. I feel peace and calmness in my heart at my decision and to all those I left behind, I'm sorry. You know my name, you know how to find me in-game, and I've always said it and stand by it: factions don't dictate friends. Look me up, we'll party together sometime, or just have a chat. I still love you all and I'll still do whatever I can to help any one of you with anything you need.

The fact is, I have seen in Bushido what happens to a lot of factions that become TW obsessed - level, money, and gear counts for more than personality. Bushido became so focused on TW that they began to lose sight of the bigger picture, of the family that we'd built, the friends we'd made. Everything became all TW, all the time, level, level, level for TW, get charms for TW, make apothecary items for TW, "the more lands we hold, the more money we'll get." If that's the reason for staying in a faction, well... count me out. I never did TW for the pay, I never even took pay from TW, always just mailed it back as a donation to my guild. I never wanted to be number 1, I've never been a very competitive person, and the competition within the faction had really started to heat up. It's just a sad fact that Bushido was becoming an unhealthy place for me to be and, at that moment that I clicked that button, I realized that it was the only option left for me. Nothing I'd done or tried to do, no amount of talking, was going to change anything.

In a faction where an officer is demoted and then booted with no warning just because he pointed out our flaws, where this person was threatened afterward to return his borrowed gear or face being reported to the GMs for harrassment, where he had to abandon that character because nearly all his gear was on loan from the faction... Where, if you speak up, if you speak out and rock the boat, you will quickly be silenced, yelled at, told you are wrong for putting your guildies before yourself... Well, to me, that's the job of a leader or director, to put the guild first. Apparently that was wrong of me and that was the moment that I realized something needed to happen and it probably would involve me leaving to avoid rocking the boat any more than I already had. But I made a promise to the guildies, that I would always be there for them, always try to take care of them, and so I stayed, for the many, rather than leave over the few.

But when I realized that the rules only applied to certain people, in that second, I had to go. My integrity was compromised, my morals totally trashed, and I'm sorry, but I couldn't continue to play that way any more. Loyalty, honor, and respect really do mean something to me and to stick Bushido over your head, I expect you to uphold those values, not only for some, but for all.

So, Bushido, trust me, I wasn't planning on leaving when I walked into TW on Friday night, I was planning on winning, on seeing my faction through to the end, and I'm sorry I wasn't able to do that. It was start screaming and yelling and crying and booting a former leader that a lot of people still care a lot about, or leave, and I stand by the thought that leaving was the best option for me and everyone else. And those of you still there, please, be honest with your guildes, tell them the truth when they ask why I left. Don't lie to them and tell them I left because my husband left, or because "someone" got "a little" out of control on vent, or some other rubbish. Tell them I left because everything Bushido stands for is becoming blurred along the lines, that the rules only apply to certain people, and that they should expect never to be able to speak their minds or risk banishment if someone doesn't like what they have to say.

And lastly, to those of you who have loaned me things, I plan on working my rear-end off to get those gears back to you - the armor I have on loan... another Bushido is currently wearing MY TT80 armor that was slightly lesser than what was loaned to me. As soon as she is through with it, your armor will be returned. As to the FC weapon on loan to me from another Bushido, I swear to you, as soon as I'm able (my TT80 weapon is also on loan to someone else) I will return it to you. I don't want to be gone from Bushido and seen as having no honor for keeping the things that were loaned to me - I have no intention of keeping them or selling them, only of using them until I can replace them and then returning them to their rightful owners. If it's a very big issue, please feel free to contact me in-game and I will immediately return your things to you and go naked, if I have to.

Anyway, I'll end this Willow novel with this: I love you, Bushido, and I love all that you are supposed to stand for. I wish you all nothing but success both in-game and IRL, and I'll always be here for any one of you to help if I can. Please understand that, for the majority of you, this had nothing to do with YOU and everything to do with me. I have a husband, 3 kids, I'm a full-time student and a full-time gamer and I do the best I can. Maybe being director of any faction just isn't for me and I'm sorry I had to find that out the hard way and for any hurt I might have caused any of you by leaving.
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  • Teh_fishey - Dreamweaver
    Teh_fishey - Dreamweaver Posts: 552 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    Well I read some of it, but when I scrolled down to see how much was left I just gave up.... b:thanks

    From what I did read, it sounds like what you're saying does make sense, and maybe vp could be a little nicer... although remember, he did create and run the faction for quite a while, and he's worked hard building it from the ground up to a TW faction.
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  • WillowGirl - Dreamweaver
    WillowGirl - Dreamweaver Posts: 180 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    Yes, I can't disagree with you on that, he DID build the faction and he ran it very, very well before his hiatus. HE was the reason I joined Bushido to begin with and I had a tremendous amount of respect for him. But upon returning, I got this bad vibe, and a lot of very unfriendly things have been said and, to me, that is not how Bushido is supposed to work. Maybe it's just a game, but, as in real life, loyalty, honor, and respect mean a lot to me and I was seeing a load of disrespect happening a lot lately and I couldn't continue to be a part of it.
  • MagicHamsta - Lost City
    MagicHamsta - Lost City Posts: 10,466 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    o.O
    yay?
    b:puzzled
    well it be in the past now.
    onward to a new faction?
    O.o
    darthpanda16: Firefox crashed on me. Aryannamage: I don't think I am a GM that would be new.
    Hawk:Do this. closing thread
    frankieraye: I'll see if we can replace the woman with a stick figure and the tiger fangs with marshmallows.//Issues like these need to get escalated quickly to minimize the damage.
    Kantorek: Yeah.. you should try it. It's awesome.
    Sihndra: Nope- not currently possible under any circumstances. Sorry.
    LokisDottir: I mean...not haunting the forums, nope nope..
    Konariraiden: You don't know what you are up against. You will lose.
    Waiting for...Hamster Packs!
    58% chance to get tokens
    41% chance to get an all class pet hamster....but they has already been freed by the magic hamster.
    1% chance to get ban hamstered with the message "Hamsters United!"
    [SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]
  • Mizuoni - Dreamweaver
    Mizuoni - Dreamweaver Posts: 3,533 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    Wonderful read!
    Very interesting imo
    Sins are Scissors. Psychics are Rocks.
    Archers, Venos, Barbs, Wizards, BMs, Mystics, Seekers are Paper.
    ...and Clerics are Mushrooms.
    Paper beats Rock. Scissors beats Paper. Scissors also happens to beat Rock...until Rock gets 50k+ soulforce at which point Rock becomes an unstoppable killing machine that beats Paper... and would beat Scissors but it can't find Scissors, because Scissors are invisible.
    So Scissors beat Paper and avoids Rock, and that is called BALANCE. -cheze
  • MagicHamsta - Lost City
    MagicHamsta - Lost City Posts: 10,466 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    WillowGirl
    go eat a bagel~
    ("')(O.o)("')
    do it~
    or mayhaps some toast.
    they be delicious
    (>.<)
    and will make you feel better.
    ^.^
    b:thanks
    darthpanda16: Firefox crashed on me. Aryannamage: I don't think I am a GM that would be new.
    Hawk:Do this. closing thread
    frankieraye: I'll see if we can replace the woman with a stick figure and the tiger fangs with marshmallows.//Issues like these need to get escalated quickly to minimize the damage.
    Kantorek: Yeah.. you should try it. It's awesome.
    Sihndra: Nope- not currently possible under any circumstances. Sorry.
    LokisDottir: I mean...not haunting the forums, nope nope..
    Konariraiden: You don't know what you are up against. You will lose.
    Waiting for...Hamster Packs!
    58% chance to get tokens
    41% chance to get an all class pet hamster....but they has already been freed by the magic hamster.
    1% chance to get ban hamstered with the message "Hamsters United!"
    [SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]
  • WillowGirl - Dreamweaver
    WillowGirl - Dreamweaver Posts: 180 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    Nooooo bagels for me, I have the flu - nothing but Sprite for 2 days, lol.

    And I have returned to my original faction that I built with my husband and merged with Bushido - it's called Imajica and it's very small and quiet and if we ever do think about TW again, it'll be with the intent of losing and only doing the TW to have fun with our guildies :)
  • MagicHamsta - Lost City
    MagicHamsta - Lost City Posts: 10,466 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    D:
    no....bagel?
    no sammich?
    b:cry

    wait wha?
    since when could humans not eat bagels and sammiches during the flu?
    b:puzzled
    me don't remember designing or hearing of any flu like that.
    (>.<)'

    also yay~
    just move on and has fun.
    ^.^
    darthpanda16: Firefox crashed on me. Aryannamage: I don't think I am a GM that would be new.
    Hawk:Do this. closing thread
    frankieraye: I'll see if we can replace the woman with a stick figure and the tiger fangs with marshmallows.//Issues like these need to get escalated quickly to minimize the damage.
    Kantorek: Yeah.. you should try it. It's awesome.
    Sihndra: Nope- not currently possible under any circumstances. Sorry.
    LokisDottir: I mean...not haunting the forums, nope nope..
    Konariraiden: You don't know what you are up against. You will lose.
    Waiting for...Hamster Packs!
    58% chance to get tokens
    41% chance to get an all class pet hamster....but they has already been freed by the magic hamster.
    1% chance to get ban hamstered with the message "Hamsters United!"
    [SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]
  • WillowGirl - Dreamweaver
    WillowGirl - Dreamweaver Posts: 180 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    lol Magic - I see it like this: if I'm gonna puke, it's better if it's only liquid, don't wanna hurl bagel chunks b:laugh
  • MagicHamsta - Lost City
    MagicHamsta - Lost City Posts: 10,466 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    ooooooo
    scared me for a moment.
    (>.<)'
    some sort of viral/bacterial species out of me control?
    b:shocked
    darthpanda16: Firefox crashed on me. Aryannamage: I don't think I am a GM that would be new.
    Hawk:Do this. closing thread
    frankieraye: I'll see if we can replace the woman with a stick figure and the tiger fangs with marshmallows.//Issues like these need to get escalated quickly to minimize the damage.
    Kantorek: Yeah.. you should try it. It's awesome.
    Sihndra: Nope- not currently possible under any circumstances. Sorry.
    LokisDottir: I mean...not haunting the forums, nope nope..
    Konariraiden: You don't know what you are up against. You will lose.
    Waiting for...Hamster Packs!
    58% chance to get tokens
    41% chance to get an all class pet hamster....but they has already been freed by the magic hamster.
    1% chance to get ban hamstered with the message "Hamsters United!"
    [SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]
  • Zanryu - Dreamweaver
    Zanryu - Dreamweaver Posts: 7,261 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    XBushidoX is a faction I very much enjoyed. When I originally joined I didn't plan to stay, but the longer I was in it the more awesome it became. We weren't the strongest but we had fun, we were a family. A family I was glad to be a part of. I heard a lot of great things about Vic while he was on break and now he's come back, and I'd like to say something...

    Willow happy you feel peace with your decision, it's good to do what's best for you or your faction, or both if you can. Even though you left Bushido I consider you a friend.

    As for Vic... Former leader or not, you DON'T insult the faction you're in over a TW. TW is a fun part of the game, winning or losing shouldn't matter as long as you have a good time. What you did was rude, disrespectful, and still has me pissed at you. Just because you WERE the leader doesn't make you some kind of god everyone has to bow down to and take **** from you. Some people may still have respect for you and want to listen to your opinions but I'll pass on that. I don't care if this post gets me kicked from Bushido, you're nothing but trash to me Vic.. anybody that could do that to their own faction over an aspect of the game doesn't deserve to have the name Bushido over their head, it just goes against everything Bushido means. The game itself isn't what's important, it's the bonds you form with the people you play with, so mabye instead of yelling and calling your faction names you could try to be calm and RESPECTFUL.

    There... I've said what I needed to say...
  • MagicHamsta - Lost City
    MagicHamsta - Lost City Posts: 10,466 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    Teh path be clear then. According to me natural loyalty settings,
    yesh yesh..
    b:avoid
    if the controlling entity of teh faction be.....bad
    and if teh issues from the controlling entity being bad arises.
    we has to break away and start a new faction/join a new faction (in me case it be joining as teh only option as me would has problems with me noob power if me were in any leader ship position.)
    b:bye

    all factions needs a strong and good leader in position.
    (and by good me don't mean like good as in nice me mean good as in compatible.)
    darthpanda16: Firefox crashed on me. Aryannamage: I don't think I am a GM that would be new.
    Hawk:Do this. closing thread
    frankieraye: I'll see if we can replace the woman with a stick figure and the tiger fangs with marshmallows.//Issues like these need to get escalated quickly to minimize the damage.
    Kantorek: Yeah.. you should try it. It's awesome.
    Sihndra: Nope- not currently possible under any circumstances. Sorry.
    LokisDottir: I mean...not haunting the forums, nope nope..
    Konariraiden: You don't know what you are up against. You will lose.
    Waiting for...Hamster Packs!
    58% chance to get tokens
    41% chance to get an all class pet hamster....but they has already been freed by the magic hamster.
    1% chance to get ban hamstered with the message "Hamsters United!"
    [SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]
  • Zanryu - Dreamweaver
    Zanryu - Dreamweaver Posts: 7,261 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    Oh Hamsta, you have many things to teach us mortals b:thanks
  • MagicHamsta - Lost City
    MagicHamsta - Lost City Posts: 10,466 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    Oh Hamsta, you have many you want to things to teach other mortals b:thanks

    fixed.
    b:surrender
    me are technically mortal too merely has an enhanced life span. and humans has a special something we don't has apparently....
    and besides humans be not ready yet.
    ._.'
    seems like they be going backwards instead right now.
    (>.<)'

    although most of what we wish to teach can be learned just by observing us and checking out more about the distant past when humans still knew true speak.
    X_x'
    also ever wonder why hamsters get to have hamster ball while mice, rats, and others of the small sized rodents don't?
    ^.^
    darthpanda16: Firefox crashed on me. Aryannamage: I don't think I am a GM that would be new.
    Hawk:Do this. closing thread
    frankieraye: I'll see if we can replace the woman with a stick figure and the tiger fangs with marshmallows.//Issues like these need to get escalated quickly to minimize the damage.
    Kantorek: Yeah.. you should try it. It's awesome.
    Sihndra: Nope- not currently possible under any circumstances. Sorry.
    LokisDottir: I mean...not haunting the forums, nope nope..
    Konariraiden: You don't know what you are up against. You will lose.
    Waiting for...Hamster Packs!
    58% chance to get tokens
    41% chance to get an all class pet hamster....but they has already been freed by the magic hamster.
    1% chance to get ban hamstered with the message "Hamsters United!"
    [SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]
  • Zanryu - Dreamweaver
    Zanryu - Dreamweaver Posts: 7,261 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    Mind Control! It's The Only Explanation!
  • MagicHamsta - Lost City
    MagicHamsta - Lost City Posts: 10,466 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    Gasp!

    close but no dice.
    (>.<)
    cats has designed and specialize in mind control.
    we hamsters specialize in something else. (of course me still use it.....actually quite alot in PW)
    b:avoid
    o.O
    but what me use be a low grade version which people of sufficient mental will & strength can easily resist unconsciously.
    .....easy way to test be try to remember one of the 3 anti troll threads me has been in.
    darthpanda16: Firefox crashed on me. Aryannamage: I don't think I am a GM that would be new.
    Hawk:Do this. closing thread
    frankieraye: I'll see if we can replace the woman with a stick figure and the tiger fangs with marshmallows.//Issues like these need to get escalated quickly to minimize the damage.
    Kantorek: Yeah.. you should try it. It's awesome.
    Sihndra: Nope- not currently possible under any circumstances. Sorry.
    LokisDottir: I mean...not haunting the forums, nope nope..
    Konariraiden: You don't know what you are up against. You will lose.
    Waiting for...Hamster Packs!
    58% chance to get tokens
    41% chance to get an all class pet hamster....but they has already been freed by the magic hamster.
    1% chance to get ban hamstered with the message "Hamsters United!"
    [SIGPIC][/SIGPIC]
  • Firefeng - Dreamweaver
    Firefeng - Dreamweaver Posts: 421 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    Everything strikes me as agreeable except for the comment that Vent isn't a necessity for TW. It isn't necessary to participate in TW, but it really is necessary to win.

    Again, though, if you're making a faction solely to win TW, you're doing it wrong. I like Equinox. We only go crazy about charms/apo/TW for 2-3 days a week, and even then TW attendance isn't mandatory. Rest of the week it's a family faction.
  • Zanryu - Dreamweaver
    Zanryu - Dreamweaver Posts: 7,261 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    Vent isn't needed at all, if you absolutely need a voice chat system but can't afford vent, Team Speak will work just fine.
  • MickTHeGREAT - Dreamweaver
    MickTHeGREAT - Dreamweaver Posts: 45 Arc User
    edited January 2010
    A small thing to point out that You can easily obtained a FREE vent channel with some sub-channels... which will be in total control of the faction...

    Don't see the point of paying really...


    AND

    there are no limits(in my case) for the amount of people in the channel...

    So... why pay if you can have it for FREE? b:cute
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  • Kardaron - Raging Tide
    Kardaron - Raging Tide Posts: 75 Arc User
    edited February 2010
    yep, you pretty much need a thick skin around Victory during TW.
  • Reico_M - Dreamweaver
    Reico_M - Dreamweaver Posts: 72 Arc User
    edited February 2010
    Thank you Willow for starting this thread before me. I have often considered writing something similar but have had to watch what I say towards Bushido as yes, as you mentioned, I have been threatened to be reported to the GM's for some ban-able offense.

    Dear Bushido...

    Loyalty, Honor, and Respect have become just Words to you. Where they were once Ideals, that I too once put to the forefront of my thoughts as a religious man thinks about God. You have become corrupt, and have strayed from the path you wished to walk when you first started crawling. Where you once sought to have only the most noble of players to have the name XBushidoX above their heads, you now only seek the highest of numbers. Where a person's influence used to be decided by their personality, it is now determined only by what level their characters are.

    Loyalty - to what now? To the map? To the glory of war? Certainly not to each other, as it once was. I watched as all my friends left one at a time from the faction, but I stayed as I felt that Bushido's values were true. I stayed, loyal to the end, demoted and booted for telling you all that you're falling from grace.

    Honor - honesty, fairness, integrity, accountability, a persons worth, their credibility. These are all the things you once sought after in all your members. Now you sit in a festering den where you put on smiles in front of one another and talk trash behind your own backs.
    Quantity has become more valuable to you than quality. You have created a totalitarian government where if you speak your mind you will be looked down upon. Where you have to live in fear as your freedom of speech has been revoked.

    Respect - to whom? To the other factions on the server? To the people around you? Your own members? You once pitied the factions that acted this way. Those elitists who wanted nothing but power, with no care or concern for their members. Because it wasn't about the glory, or the fame or the fortune. It was about having respect for one another.
    This thread was started because your own fore-founder, instead of coming back from his break and recognizing all the hard work you have done to come as far as you did without him, came back and began to treat you all like you were children.
    I see no respect at all, anywhere. Not from management to the players below them, or from the players to the leaders above them. You are becoming a joke unable to laugh because of your pride, sitting looking at yourself in the mirror completely unable to see all the flaws through your vanity.


    Ask yourself, Bushido. What happened? How did things go so wrong?
  • Firefeng - Dreamweaver
    Firefeng - Dreamweaver Posts: 421 Arc User
    edited February 2010
    Vent isn't needed at all, if you absolutely need a voice chat system but can't afford vent, Team Speak will work just fine.

    You're welcome to try beating Calamity without voice chat to coordinate your TW. Team Speak servers still cost money.
  • Slivaf - Dreamweaver
    Slivaf - Dreamweaver Posts: 2,106 Arc User
    edited February 2010
    I understand your frustration, it is truly annoying trying to stand up for what's right, when you know if you do, you will probably be the one in the 'wrong.' Though someone has got to do it.

    For example if you haven't seen edge of darkness and want to see it skip the italicized part, though I wont delve too deeply into it, in the movie mel's daughter is working for a company, and finds out something isn't right, and decides to try and expose them, but numerous attempts fail, and she is ultimately killed by her father's side.

    There are many examples where it is real hard to stand up to others due to them holding a lot of power, but as you said, In this case they can easily be replaced. Sadly some people don't realize how little power they 'actually' hold, besides one mistake could bring even the biggest empire to it's knee's.

    One more thing even if you did leave behind your husband, then so ******* be it. =x Shows you agree with him, and if you don't, then at least it shows your standing behind your man. Which in my book, is far more respectable, then trying to stay around and act like nothings wrong.

    Hell even if you left with a friend, it would be much like the above description.

    By the way to whom it may concern, there was a time, I was admittedly interested in joining bushido, (before I even joined armagedon, and then I entertained the idea when I left armagedon, and joined equinox) and well after reading this topic, I must say I for one am glad I didn't join you all.

    Either way I still wish bushido the best of luck, you all have been a very entertaining guild down there in the south, facing the likes of dynasty, and armagedon.

    just my two cents
    Ah, Mistakes are so easily made. ~ laura resnick

    What kind of message are you sending when you insult my intelligence? ~ Me ~ 5/29/2015 (Yes it is possible someone said this before just no idea who/where.)
  • Hazumu - Dreamweaver
    Hazumu - Dreamweaver Posts: 293 Arc User
    edited February 2010
    As both Willow's and Reico's friend and as a member of Bushido allow me to say this.

    Reico, you're talking with anger in your voice.

    Slivaf, image of Bushido presented here IS NOT ACCURATE to the slightest.

    For the past couple of weeks when we tried to hold onto the city as long as we possibly could TW did go bit too high up in our heads. NOBODY can deny that. But to say that Bushido has become corrupt, or has lost sight of its ideals is bullcrap.

    I know as a fact that Willow still loves Bushido and I know as a fact that if I stay here, I would love my time being here. Bushido did suffer a small collapse in morality, but I can see it reforming, going back to what it was not long time ago. I can see a glimpse of the same honour and respect we held for each other and others we once had.

    Are there still problems? Yes, no faction ever is going to be problem free, that is just a fact when people gather, there are going to be problems. But will we be able to climb those obstacles and top them? Absolutely.

    The only people whom badmouth Bushido's name are people whom either have never been in there, or showed to have a rotten personality to begin with.

    Reading other peoples comments only makes me realise even more how good place this is to be in, because they put a high emphasis on what isn't true.
  • Kaiowyn - Dreamweaver
    Kaiowyn - Dreamweaver Posts: 14 Arc User
    edited February 2010
    It doesn't matter who started the facton, no one has the right to abuse anyone. The bully should have been turfed. All it takes is one bully to ruin any group. WillowGirl I applaud your refusal to be abused by leaving the facton.

    Kaiowyn - DreamWeaver

    No I am not a girl
  • WillowGirl - Dreamweaver
    WillowGirl - Dreamweaver Posts: 180 Arc User
    edited February 2010
    Sweet Zumi, you know I love you. And yes, I do love Bushido, very, very much. I love everything "Bushido" stands for because it is how I live my real life and when I first found Bushido and started learning all about it and getting to know it's members, I thought I'd found my little heaven on the PWI earth. I still love every member of Bushido, and I mean EVERY member, Vic included. When he isn't flipping out during TW, he's an amazing, intelligent, really hot-sounding man, (yeah, I have a HUGE voice crush on Vic when he's not yelling at people, never made any bones about that), and he obviously has a very, very good heart to have provided for Bushido even during all those months away. Any Bushido wants to pm me any time to ask for anything and, as long as I'm not locked up in TT or something, they can count me there, fast as I can fly or teleport. Just because it doesn't say Bushido over my head doesn't mean I don't still consider every one of you my family - sure, with some brothers and sisters I might not get along with perfectly, but family nonetheless.

    You're right, every faction has it's problems. And the fact that you continue to hold on to your faith in Bushido being able to overcome it's problems makes me very, very proud of you. I wish I'd had that ability at the time my decision was made, I so wish I still had that faith in all that was good for me in Bushido.

    The sad fact for me is that once something has changed for me as greatly as Bushido did... I just know I can't get that feeling back again. It would never be the same for me to log on every day to that faction chat, to that vent. Too many things were said, too many hurtful things, and my faith in Bushido was trampled on, totally crushed, and I don't know that I could ever regain what I once had there.

    But sweety, of course Reico is speaking with what sounds like anger, and to me, I hear and feel a righteous anger. He spoke up, rocked the boat, said some things maybe in a way that some didn't want to hear them, (and they were truths and some people just couldn't handle it), and he was stripped of his title, thrown from his home, all while he was not even in-game. He had to learn he was banished by finding he could no longer log into the forums. Is that the proper way to treat an elected officer? Is that showing any kind of respect at all? And not only was he shown the door without even being aware that it was happening, he was then threatened and stripped of all his gear, leaving his poor wizzie naked and afraid of being reported and banned for harrassment for the simple question of, "Why was I booted?" Some very poor missteps have been made in Bushido and the sad fact is that no one is willing to own up to the problems. When I made an attempt to address some issues, I was yelled at like a rotten child and spent a day wondering when the forums were going to stop letting me in, was I to be booted, too, for speaking up?

    Like every faction, Bushido has it's problems, but unlike other factions, some people seem to think if you put a happy face on and yell "Bushido Rocks" a bunch of times, everyone will forget the problems. People think that winning a TW will make everything all better, and, sure, it raises morale, but what about the rest of the week? Problems need to be brought out in the open and discussed and people need to work together as a team to solve them.

    In a place of "democracy," too many decisions are being made without the consideration or the vote of the people, too many things are happening "behind the scenes" that most of the "little guys" don't know anything about. No one put Reico being booted to a vote for the faction, as a decision the whole faction should have had a say in. Yes, it was discussed, and yes some of us agreed that it needed to be done, but that it should be talked about with him first, giving him the option to correct himself, to re-word some things he may have said in the heat of the moment. But he wasn't given that option, no one talked to him, no one gave him a chance to correct his mistakes. He was thrown out without consideration and threatened by the people he loved and respected. So yes, he speaks out of anger, but so do I and so do others who either were in Bushido in the past or who are still there now, holding on to that hope that somehow, someday, Bushido will return to it's former glory as the best, kindest, most helpful, and certainly the funniest faction on Dreamweaver server. We all feel a little anger, I believe, at the way things have taken a turn for the worse in Bushido.

    I just feel that, once that wonderful, magic feeling was lost for me, I won't ever be able to get it back. Some things, once lost, can never be retrieved, and that was my fear for Bushido, that was why I had to leave. I held on to a faction for months too long on Sanctuary, hoping, praying, that things would improve, but I only saw it's gradual decline. I'm sorry that I couldn't leave myself in that position again, for my own emotional well-being.

    And to anyone and everyone who jumps in on this thread, I in no way intended this to be an attack on Bushido, a bash Bushido thread. My forum rights were removed almost immediately upon my leaving the faction and I spent over 3 hours that night in pm with countless Bushido members, explaining myself and apologizing over and over and over again. And I probably didn't even get to talk to more than maybe 10% of the faction. I had hoped that there would be a delay on removing me from the forums so I could sleep on it and return the next morning to write my farewell to the entire faction, so I could reach as many of the amazing people in Bushido that I possibly could. I wanted my chance to explain myself, that is all. And when I logged on Saturday and started hearing some of the ridiculous reasons people were being told, if they were answered at all, as to why I left... PWI forums was the only place I could attempt to reach as many Bushidos as possible. I just didn't want to have left and have people not understanding, saying it was for selfish reasons, or that I followed my husband out. I spent a whole day a week ago being yelled at by my husband to leave, that it was unhealthy for me to be in a place where people were being downright mean to me because they didn't like what I had to say. I refused to listen, and I stayed for Bushido, for the family I love, with the hope that things would change. I want to make it very, very clear: I follow no one but myself, my own heart, and my own soul. And my heart and soul told me it was time to leave before more damage was done to the relationships I found in Bushido. I did what was in the best interest of myself and what I felt was the best interest for Bushido.
  • Illyana - Dreamweaver
    Illyana - Dreamweaver Posts: 348 Arc User
    edited February 2010
    I've read your diatribes.

    May you find happiness wherever you go, make it where it is not, and the continued acuity to know when to move on.
    5.0 "Pure" 8jun Sage Clawrcher of Dreamweaver
  • Lightaine - Dreamweaver
    Lightaine - Dreamweaver Posts: 326 Arc User
    edited February 2010
    I guess you guys are talking about xBushidox.

    Because the name Bushido was taken or xBushidox just looks so much cooler, embrace the dumb name.

    Ignore my thread derailment. Carry on.
    hai2u
  • FranzKafka - Dreamweaver
    FranzKafka - Dreamweaver Posts: 345 Arc User
    edited February 2010
    Well we could atleast start by telling what happened which I too found atleast strange on the consequences.I'll tell it as heard from a third point of view,not involved:Willow was really pissed at her squad members that we're like spread all over the map,not following(yeah very stressfull situation)and complaining about it on vent,on the other hand Vic was telling for the millionth time to all to stay in the air and other basic things like this that one by now should know without somebody telling you every 5 mins.Now I agree Vic lashed on the wrong person but it was by far what people imagine reading the posts above.Willow called for the milionth time her squad"gather to me" and this clashed with Vic lashing on her"stop saying "to me" but tell them a place where to go".Tryed to be as accurate as I could.
    As for considerations from me Willow was wrong doing 2 things:1 leaving the faction and 2nd leaving during the tw.I would have been by far on her side if she would have just closed the vent or whatever similar and waited until the end.On the other hand I understand the emotional burden but since it wasn't only about you and vic but you had a small comunity under you should have thought at us also before leaving.No matter what others say about corruption and other bull**** we would have supported you and stood by your side after.No matter how hard it was for you the next morning to wake up and not have bushido above head,remember others felt abandoned by you.I'd say rethink about it but it's up to you,staz and vic to clear the issues and a long talk goes farther than pressing G and trying to removing something so rare.
    Good luck no matter where you go(cept for equinox :))and have fun,also since you seem sick,take care of yourself and get well first.
  • Nyura - Dreamweaver
    Nyura - Dreamweaver Posts: 5 Arc User
    edited February 2010
    Though I am not in Bushido and never have been in it, knowing only the things you said. I feel that you did the right thing WillowGirl, for you and the faction. Good luck with your current faction and have fun gaming. See you around in-game sometime.b:bye
    Remember that the most beautiful things in the world are the most useless.
    _________________________________________________
    My old char had this name but I deleted it, its a veno now.
  • jenhic
    jenhic Posts: 2 Arc User
    edited February 2010
    This thread is filled with hypocrasy and is nothing but people's personal drama.It is his-story. If you aren't happy, do something about it. Once you have done something about it, move on and let it go. If you have moved on, why are you still talking about it and perpetuating the drama? It's easy to talk the talk, I want to see you all walk the walk.
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